After almost a year long writers block, I've finally started writing in my notebook again. It's been forever since I've written so freely, since I've been able to write more than a few hundred words a day. Even the last two stories I managed to write were such a struggle that I ended up hating them for how hard they were to get out. I think it had something to do with the extreme bout of sadness I was dealing with. It all started with the two cancer scares I had, but once those were sorted, it never went away. I spent a lot of time frustrated with myself, annoyed that I couldn't get over whatever was wrong with me. It's all finally fading, and with that, writing is coming back. I'm glad, it's been so long since I've woken up happy
and now I'm spending days waking up, just smiling.
I've also been struck by some fandom nostalgia these past few weeks as well. I've dived back into Die Hard and The Walking Dead. Jumping in to them again, I realized how much I hated The Walking Dead fandom. I'm one of the few who loves things that are very very unpopular in the fandom and it's led to me being attacked for my opinions. It's a fandom that I will not be actively participating in, but will be keeping to my twitter feed and reading those few fics that don't use epithets such as 'the korean', 'the redneck', or 'the chinaman' profusely. With the addition of my old fandoms, I fell further in love with Inception again. I missed my boys and that's what I'm writing, my Inception WIPs.
I'll round this all up with some current reads I just finished reading, or rereading for the tenth time in some cases. The Walking DeadA Long, Hard Road, by melfice
: The bite marks on Glenn's shoulder are not from a walker. The instability in Daryl's life is not from the end of the world. Daryl Dixon/Glenn Rhee Take note of the warnings and authors note. This story is amazing though and beautiful.Sometimes (I Think I Can Dream), by dana_norram
: Everybody wants to have somebody come back for them. Daryl Dixon/Glenn Rhee This Kiss, by Severina
: “Oh for fucks sake,” Daryl grunted. He raised Glenn’s hand to his mouth, brushed his lips quickly against the wound. “There. Fuckin’ baby.” Eight Limbs But Not Slimy, by The_Readers_Muse
: "To be honest he wasn't exactly sure how to handle this. He wasn't the stick around and cuddle type. He mostly worked off the strategy of wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am. Because honestly, he just wasn't the type of man that good ol-fashioned southern girls took home to meet their folks." Die Hard (Live Free or Die Hard)Situation Normal (All Fucked Up), by Severina
: Most diseases kill people. This one... alters them. John McClane/Matt Farrell Apocalypse AUIt's All Fun And Games Until..., by Severina
: After the fire sale, John and Matt promise to stay in touch -- a promise that neither man keeps, even though memories of each other are keeping them up nights. But when Matt witnesses a violent crime, his safest option is to stay with McClane until the perpetrator is caught. This could be great for both of them... or it could be another of John McClane's Very Bad Ideas. John McClane/Matt Farrell The One Where Matt Farrell Is Most Certainly Not Sleeping With John McClane (not even a little), by lunabee34
:“Life is not a wet dream, Frederick. It’s not even a B movie. Guys like McClane don’t fuck guys like me. Ever.” John McClane/Matt Farrell Coming Home, by lunabee34
: Matt's not that guy. He's really not, no matter what McClane said. Staying alive is a very special motivator, and saving McClane, saving Lucy—that was just another kind of saving his own ass. So how he ends up here on the floor of Citibank watching his blood sink into the carpet, Matt doesn't exactly know. John McClane/Matt Farrell Partners, by Severina
: "Yeah," John says slowly, "I still got that hacker punk living with me." John McClane/Matt Farrell Ain't No Sunshine, by persnickett
: “Why is it always fucking raining?”
“So I can ask you what you’re doing here,” Matt pants, “standing outside my building in the rain with me, like some bad romantic comedy.” John McClane/Matt Farrell